no enough memory space on this lj. hence. created a new acount. godlovesjess.livejournal.com now. haha(: i will miss my this blog like shit man.

yay! exams ended. first stop is to go parkway to follow up my dearest wenning and to catch up with her, like know more about her life and stuffs. so, yupps. then we went to eat ramly burger and drink bubble tea! (:




Then after that, i met my 2 lovely sheep for shepherding @ sing post subway!(:



then my sheep were looking very cui because of school, exams, results and stuffs.. haha. look at them


Then we went to the toilet and tried to take pictures of ourselves. but kinda failed...



I really enjoyed talking to my sheep vivian and cherv alot. They are really eager to serve God which I am very very happy lar. Then we just talked and I really love them alot and at the same time I feel very very loved. Thank you sheep for meeting me for shepherding and dinner even though you all are so busy with school and more(:

haha. was supposed to go out with minjie and play the whole night away. but, his shepherd dun allow and say its more wise to bring like another person along, lest to stumble the younger ones. That is something I never consider. All I think of is having fun and never about the consequences. So like at around 1030pm, I still have no idea what are my plans for the night. Then minjie ask me to wait for his call, So i just did that lor. My sheep accompany me at kembagan mrt station till about 11 then finally minjie sms me to go his house. Then i say bye bye to my sheep and went to simei mrt station and waited for him. I felt like quite bad because I feel like a burden. I dun want to disturb him and make things difficult for him, so I sms him and suggested that I just spend the night at the airport. Anyways, got food, aircon and toilet. Then the security there is quite safe also ma. But then he just ask me to wait at simei mrt station. I was honestly quite scared. Because it was like a little dark and the number of people are getting fewer and fewer and my phone batt was going flat. Then I was listening to some worship songs on my mp3 then I was thinking of alot of things. Then I just started crying. haha. I think it is because of the fear and guilt inside ba.

Then finally at around 1130, minjie finally arrived. Honestly, quite relieved to see him actually. haha. The first thing he ask me was: eh you cry ar? Wa. Jess you suck man, really cannot hide your tears and feelings one. Then I just denied crying lar. I mean, its very like embarrassing ma. Its a pride thing. never show your weakness to people man.

Wa. when i reach his house, the guilt build up man. The whole master bedroom was given to me because his mum went overseas. Then all the guys in the house will squeeze in one room, including the dad leh. Then water and heater and aircon was prepared for me. I am like treated like so princess lar. I feel so so so bad. I didn't dare to touch the bed at all. Was not planning to sleep so after showering and brushing my teeth, I went to do my Qt. Reading the bible and like doing my sermon notes. haha. Jess cried again. I was feeling like the worst person on earth lar. This is what I wrote in my Qt journal man: What can you do through me God? Do I have a destiny? I am so useless. I am a trouble maker. I am a burden to everyone be it, my family and friends. I cause nothing but misery to others. I am sorry God. Should I leave church? I don't want to hurt anymore people God!! haha. I really feel super sad. like the day before, my mum ask me: So how are your exams? Then i replied: can pass. Then she said: oh, I never expect much from you anyways. Wa. my heart just shattered into a million pieces. Then I see how minjie have to like make sure nothing happens to me outside then he has to like. bring me to his house and stuffs. When I think about how God loves me despite me being so terrible, wa. I was so gandong and I cried again. So basically, I just fell asleep on the floor while crying. When I woke up, I realise that the whole room is very dark. And i am like: hmmm?? How come ar? I remember not switching off the lights leh.. then I realise that minjie came and off the lights for me because he was doing a spotcheck to make sure I sleep.

At around 4plus 5 like that, both of us woke up, brush our teeth and bath AGAIN then minjie's dad sent us to the airport so that we can say bye bye to jojo who is going thailand for 5 days. I WILL MISS YOU AND AM MISSING YOU NOW JOJO!

we then went to eat macs breakfast at the airport and went back home to sleep again cause we are really very tired. We barely sleep for 4 hours lar. I was having such a bad headache and feeling very unwell, so I went to take a panadol and slept a little while more. When I woke up, another miraculous thing happen to me. There was a blanket on me. Then I think it is minjie just dump the balnket on top of me one lar. haha. but nevertheless, gandong.

Oh, we were happily playing with the hair straightener and curler thing. Its so fun lar. Then we shower AGAIN and then went to bugis to eat AJISAN for lunch(:




haha. mine had some chili on top so i just dump it into his bowl of ramen and then all the vegetables that has chili I also just throw inside his bowl. Then I don't eat egg yolk one ma. So i also throw inside. haha. He was like: Jessica Woon, there is a limit one kays. hahahahahah. I think I very mean then sometimes, I will take him for granted. haha. then after that, we went to buy a birthday cake for one of his cg members and he took a bus to go for cg and me take a train to find siyun, joyc, briggy and chanel who tells me that they are happily eating abalone at Ah Yi Bao Yu. rubbish lar. I reach there that time they were eating every other thing but the abalone because its too ex. hehe. To think I believe them ma.

Then we shop around orchard central and try on earrings, shoes, bags and even weird prom dresses. really had alot of fun. We were tired after awhile so we went to eat pies! :D





some random photos:




Then took a bus to marina square for the year5 y-hope dinner. haha. one word FUN! yay yay! we talk talk then laugh at each other. yay! Thank God for them in my life (minjie, sam, sean, jolyn and jiezhi). It feels very comfortable to be with them. We just eat swensens dinner and went to bugis to eat dessert.



The greatest regret is that we didn't take photos. haha.

oh ya, i feel so sorry towards minjie. Because of me, he is deprived of sleep and stuffs. sorry yeah?

Then went to sam's house to sleepover. Then we started talking and all then we fell asleep at around 3 plus.

woke up at 8 to go swimming with siyun and joyc.



went for service. then CLAMS meet. then dinner @ long john silver. then proceeded to sam's house for my 2nd night @ sam's house.

Met my parents and sis for lunch @ BIGO, wheelock place.




happy ending. going out to sing K with siyun, reg and zona and meeting jacq for dunner at parkway!

WENT TO POPO HOUSE ON SUNDAY AND WAS GIVEN AN OPPORTUNITY TO COOK DINNER FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY! HERE ARE THE PICTURES(:
































yay. mission accomplished!! (:





THE CRAZY AMOUNT OF FOOD THAT WE COOK!!


everyone is enjoying the food that we cook!



HAPPY MOONCAKE EATING! (:




















some random pictures..














































really love my family alot especially my beloved cuzzie GLADYS!!(: haha. growing up together and now we are like still super close. wa really thank God for putting her in my life man.



ancient yeah?

yupps. so on monday, sam came to study with me and she bought a thinking cap. wa. Sam is another one that I wanna thank God for. Its like we can click so well lor. its hard to find someone so he2 de2 lai2. haha


Then on tuesday, I went to airport to study with siyun. we went to eat popeyes and then so malu lar. my period came and then like stain on my shorts. I was like oh shucks. then siyun called mins and he delivered a pair of shorts and a jacket for me. haha. I really very failure as a woman man. I just cannot handle perdiod lar. it always feels like my first time.

Then on wed, went to school with sam to attend her study cg and then there is this moment where yiching was sharing her testimony and I was really touched. It really feels that God is so so so real and I just cannot contain my tears. almost cried man. her testimony was like something about God reassuring her that everything is okay after her tests when sometimes she feels that she is so going to screw up and that God reminds her to have faith and trust him completely. yupps.
this is anyi who loves pink to the max!


THURSDAY WAS KILLER! HISTORY PAPER IN THE MORNING AND GP IN THE NOON. then i thank God for mins who came early to pray for me and he enlighten me with one thing. It is not the person who pray for you but prayers only work if you believe in them. So all faith filled and armed with my team of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, I stepped into history exam.
Then like I was doing it at ease with much confidence, many times i feel like giving up because my hand very tired but i told myself: No jess, you cannot because if you do, it will be a disgrace to God. so yupps. i just kept writing and writing until the cher says stop writing and put down your pens. Though the last essay i didn't finish the conclusion but I felt that I did my best le(:

GP was quite cui. I look at all the 12 essay questions and I do not have interests in any then I really dunno what to write. I was like: GG le lar. Then I felt like just handing in a blank paper. But then, I thought of myself as ambassador of christ then I tell myself: Jess, no matter what, you still have to write something. So i wrote like 3 pages and I feel that it was total rubbish.

There was a half an hour break then I told myself: okay, Jess, you know what, you have to give your all and do better for paper 2. wa. Then it turns out that the comprehension is even tougher. So sighs, God, you have to really help me man. I just wanna pass GP seriously.

Then me sam and jojo rushed for cg hoping to be able to catch the worship but to our dismay, it was over le:(

I am so happy! my sheep chervvy made me an exam kit! (: I am so so loved.



Then I realise that my sheep are all quite talented!



So i went home, supposed to study econs. but really no motivation then I really feel that I am a very very lousy christian leh. Then I ask God: Why do you choose to love me man? I am not worthy. If I cannot even do well in my studies, how then am I supposed to win the world for Jesus? It is like my life is not very glorious or honourable lor. Wa. Then on friday, I woke up very early and within the few hours before econs paper, I chiong and read finish all. I just want to say: 谢谢耶稣 that my paper is over. I really feel a sense of relief. I dun care whether i suceed or fail, most importantly, I did my best. yupps. so me and sam decide to sort of reward ourselves and we went to delifrance. Then met jacq and meng there. haha

Saturday morning.. woke up at 6am to study for literature. then mum came in and she told me that if i get myself retain, I won't be able to go for church ever again. I am very terribly affected seriously. Church and God means the most to me and my mum threatens to take it away. The stakes are so high and the pressure is tremendous. I really very badly affected by it.

then met jojo, we went to eat kfc breakfast and then study tgt before I proceed to first service. Child like faith. haha. hit me straight in my heart. Do not hold on to the past, do not fear the future. Just live in the fresh presence of the Lord and just have fun when we serve God. I cried and cried during worship because I just.. like. I just want to be held in God's arms like a child and just be protected and shield from the troubles of this world. All my 3 sheep came and they hug me and comforted me and I really seriously felt loved to the max.




In shepherd's meet, I learn to really guard my soul and not to rush through things but rather, enjoy the process of it. must take note of the pace of life man.

Jess successfully wasted her time on Sunday. She did not study until 7 plus at night. So what has she been doing man? She eats many mooncakes and chocolate waffles then she watch this gu zhuang show then she upload photos and make a photo album to capture special moments of her spiritual life


What else did I do? erm eat eat eat and talk to siyun on the phone..

I would like to thank God for a few people in my life:
1) Jojo: she keeps encouraging me and really cares for my well being.

2)Chrystal Teo: The bible verse that she gave me to motivate me to study.

Colossians 1:10-11 (New International Version)

And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully

3)Siyun: She tells me that even if I fail paper 1, there is still paper 2. haha. She never fails to cheer me up lar.

4)minjie: thank you for 'lecturing' me and encouraging me. I can because God can. And thank you for reminding me that No one can separate us from the love of God. thanks(:

So i studied the whole night and went for lit exams today. Then unlucky jess did not erase her text properly then Miss Ng confiscated her textbook and so I went for lit open book exam without my book. Its like a soldier going for war without any weapons. I felt so shocked and lost. I really don't know that to do. I ask God: Why ar? Now how? Then I couldn't control, and I just cried. I wanted to just run out of the classroom and just not do the paper le.. haha. Anyways, I just continued the literature paper and tell myself: its okay one. just do your best. yupps. no regrets lar. Work hard for paper 2 lor. haha(: